So let's start with 2017, it was not the best of years for me in more ways than one. It was a very mediocre year as it is, let alone with the big pile of crappy stuff being dumped on top of it, by know means was it as bad as some but for me I felt very lost, deflated and just a bit crappy. I've never been one to shy away from a challenge or wrap myself in cotton wall but this year I feel like I have kind of just cocooned within myself a bit too much.
The year started off with me being in a job that was constantly putting me into a negative headspace and my boss (whom was also the only other member of staff) was very emotionally dependant and for a 20 year old girl it was not exactly what I'd signed up for to say the least. I went on to leave that job and started work at my current job, which I absolutely love and I am going to be gutted to be leaving in May cos it's bloody awesome. I then went on to have my teacher training interviews, which left me wanting to pull my hair out and everything ended up taking a major backseat whilst I focused on those. FYI, I successfully landed a place and I can not wait to start. But as I said, I put everything else on the backseat. This was a very silly idea as I soon come to the realisation that I was very behind on my uni work and this led to me once again having a freak out. Along with all the work and uni stress, I've also had a lot of heartbreak in terms of my family, a lot of crap has come to the surface, which has left me questioning a lot of things, in truth everything I thought I knew. So concluding on 2017, it hasn't been my finest of years in terms of headspace and I know I've disconnected myself rather a lot. But I have had some amazing things come from this year, memories made with my closet family, memories with my friends, Amsterdam with Danisha, being placed for camp, the confirmation that my career is the correct career and discovering new things about myself.
So moving on to 2018 I know what I want to achieve and I'm feeling stronger, more determined and ready than ever.
1. Fitness and Healthy Living.
This has really played a big part in my life over the last two years but moving into 2018 I really want to dedicate myself more to my health. I want to go to the gym at 6:30am four times a week, run twice a week and meditate every day. I want to truly appreciate my body, perform to the best of my ability and become even stronger than I am now. I also want to focus on my diet, this has always been the area I struggle more with, I want to stay focused and reduce my 'treats' to the bare minimum.
2. Friends and Family.
I want to spend more time with my friends and family, I truly want to appreciate what I have and stop spending so much time on my own. I enjoy my own company, which is considered a strength but only to an extent.
3. Social-Media.
I have noticed recently how disconnected me and the people around me have become, we go out for a coffee and we check our phones simply just to scroll through facebook. It's pointless and can wait, the entertainment you have physically in front of you is much better. I am also going to make a conscious effort that even if I'm not socialising with others, I will instead of aimlessly scrolling through social media I want to pick up a book or appreciate my surroundings more.
4. Learn More.
In 2018 I want to learn more than ever, through books, through documentaries, through travel and through others around me. I don't know enough about the world, which is so interesting I'm determined to learn more than ever in this upcoming year.
5. Be Kind.
I want to celebrate others successes a lot more and appreciate others, it's hard to admit but sometimes, like any other human, I get jealous and as a result may not truly share the happiness. I want to change that.
6. Be More Ethical and Eco.
Simple, appreciate the planet I live in even more than I already do.
Okay so they're my goals for this upcoming year. 2018 is going to present a lot of change in both the ideas of my goals but also in the fact that a lot is changing. I graduate from uni, I leave my job, I spend the whole summer in America and I begin teacher training. I'm so excited for this upcoming year and I hope you'll follow my journey!
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